Zune 13 Family..  

Thursday, May 21

this is my first call center wave family.. MS Zune 13 :)

we have been disbonded due to different reasons, but our friendship remains unfaded..

let me introduce them to you..










see the smiles? haha.. we're not complete there. i am the one wearing yellow.
the girl beside me is jung, our technical foundation trainer.. I have a BIG crush on her.. haha (hey, i'm not a lesbo, ok? haha )





our friend edited our picture >>


hahahahaha ..



















here's the only picture that me and my boyfriend is next to each other.. when this picture was taken, we were not yet going out.



yiii.. why does he always to make that hand gesture? GRR.. (haha.. )
we have pictures that we are together, though. but it's on our outlook in the company. can't transfer it to my mail.. :(





during our training then, we go out during dawn riding the bikes of my friends.. here's our insane pictures.. haha





























see.. Boys' trip.. hahah (did i just cal myself a Boy? haha)



we have a lot of pictures.. just view my friendster for that. I miss them sOOOoo much..
whew..


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renewed love. :)  








fools rush in love.



after all the pain, love still conquers all. ♥

God bless our relationship..

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someone just died inside of me..  

Monday, May 18






























this is an open space right? and everything i say here is kept secret by you my dear readers, right? i just want to grab this moment to burst everything i feel..




right now.. the fire in my heart to love just turned cold.






















it has been more than a month. with all the relationships that i went through, my now is my longest ( and it's only more than a month). i gave him every part of my heart, every part of my goodness.

there are lots of complications that arose during the middle part of our new relationship. responsibilities he has from his past, that is a part of his today and tomorrow. complications with his heart and mind. he's playful. he's unserious. he's young. i thought i could help him. i thought i was the one he needed to be okay. apparently, he is inlove without knowing how to properly take care and nourish that love.




another door has closed.
my heart is broken.
i will push my heart to be numb again.










right now, i hope the heaven could cry for me. '
all i wanted was to make him happy.
i thought i knew him.






















BOYS ARE LIARS.


'if he can do it once, he can do it again'




















































you used me keith. you used me. :(

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lies.hatred.martyrdom  

im such a BIG FOOL .
i hate you.
i hate you. i hate you.

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back to the blogging world..  

Saturday, May 2


it felt like ages ago since I last posted here. i missed bloggin' sOOOOOOoo much!















I will now be updating you guys with the different aspects of my life.. if this is lenghty, please do bear with me.. (laughs)









Update 1 - Rachel in the Corporate World



the biggest reason why i haven't been posting for quite a while now is because of the call center job. see, i always sleep full time whenever i don't have a shift. right now i am already certified for microsoft (specific account? secret haha).




hmm.. i am just starting but sometimes i feel that this is not the real thing that i want with my life. i crave for a lot of things -- my friends, studying, performing, LIFE. but don't get me wrong. i am happy with work. my account is sO challenging since it is a technical account. i'm loving the tech side and i'm starting to like knowing stuff which concern devices and the computer. it is a good foundation for training. discipline with time, relationships with people, balancing your energy, controlling your emotions, and the hunger for knowledge. i am definitely happy. yet, like some people from this industry say, you will feel something missing if you haven't finish school yet. i feel this too. it's not that i'm against people who think that school does not determine your success in life. i also believe in that. it's just that i miss wearing corporate attire, reading my financial books, analyzing problems, computing using my calculator, and being looked up by other people because you survived a difficult course. i miss dreaming about studying in Manila, and being a part of Big Corporate companies and dreaming about non-taxable income (dividends man! haha). maybe, i really have loved accountancy with all the years i spent with it. i miss the pressure and the pain. my tears for the subject, surviving tests and teachers because of my classmates and friends. i just can't believe that after all, i really do love being an accountant and the life that comes with it. right now, i still have plans of continuing school (of course I do!). its just right now i'm having problems which makes choosing even harder to do. Guidance from God. :)



Update 2 - Rachel in Love


i can't even believe it. me and Choy (my boyfriend) had survived for a month. noting unusual? haha not with me. all my boyfriends in the past lasted only for 3 weeks and less. my friends are even taunting me about it, they tell me i easily get bored with boys or that i don't how to pick the right one who will care for me. but see? now i found who i would want to be with. :) honestly, we are going through a lot, too. but i do hope we'll survived these all. i don't want to be too futuristic about us. i can't control life. but what i know is that right now, i want to make him happy. i want to make a difference in his life. Keith have problems. he's not with his family. but i do want him to realize that he could be happy even if
he has problems. and i want him to know that God is always with him. i don't know the reason why we met, maybe because we both can bring something new in each others life. he made me feel i can risk for love again. if being young, loving God and life and people is what he needs to learn, I'll help him learn that. i always pray for us to grow and learn from each other. so that whatever happens, we will be happy.





Update - Rachel plus friends
haha i miss everyone. even my blog friends. promised i'll read your posts. thanks witch for dropping in my drop box. :) also to nash..



Update 5 - Rachel and her inner soul
I always believe this is something I can't let go. My belief in the magic of life and the goodness of our God. hope everyone here is being touched by His love. constantly talk with Him. :)












p.s. to all of those who missed me- thanks thanks.. haha can't wait to be active again.. :)








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