Every end of the month, i will be posting highlights.. For this February, I will be giving thanks to the HEROES of my month.. (I have many everyday heroes, but for this post I will be concentrating on special ones, who gave me new inspirations this month. :) )

the POSITIVE GIRLS

Power: giving inspiration and happy spirit
Mission: to spread positivism (oh yeah!)

Message: eeeh, because of the secret, our group was formed. These gurls are my constant smile-makers.. ^.^ Go positive girls! our foe, i mean next target (haha) kua roy! bwahaha

Super Pedro

Power: Saving and Comfort

Message: haha.. I know you won't read this. Anyway, I'm so happy we became close. You are really a good friend, I hope you and Yel will be okay again.. If you need someone to listen to your problems, I'd be here for you..

Kua Benjj

Power: Conservatism (hahaha)

Message: Kua, power hug! haha Thanks for treating me as your sister.. May Papa always bless our friendship..

Prince Bee

Power: My Everyminute Hero

Message: Je t'aime always.. whatever we go through, we will always be us.. ^.^

GodBless my Heroes and Sheroes.. Til my next month-ender special entry.. :)

this post is dedicated to the HAU student who filed a case against a teacher of the same school.. i just read her story, awful and pityful.. i do hope that by praying, and posting the link to my site, i will help to let other women know that to fight abuse is something to be proud of.. Let us all hope no more of these cases will happen anymore..

Rose's Story

i had just finished my final interview for sutherland, and i passed..



well i have two things to work on: my 'scwa" sound and more knowledge on technical things. i would be part of a technical support team.

ok na ulit.. ^.^
reborn..

this is a letter, open for everyone to see, yet dedicated to someone very special for me..


to vitamins. . .
my day turned out normal, even if i haven't had any communication with you..
but, i have never been so empty inside.. (i'm starting to cry sa cafe.. :( )
yung about sa last post ko (another falling star) gusto ko magexplain, kahit ayaw mokong magexplain..

kung iniisip mo na ang linyang to "for now, i will be pushing my heart to live without that star.." means na ilalayo ko na sarili ko sayo, mali un.. (deep sigh)

my falling star, ikaw yung tinutukoy non.. pero, hindi buong ikaw, kundi yung ikaw na inisip kong pwede kong maging boyfriend.. gets mu ba? (para na kong tanga dito oh, totoo man umiiyak ako sa cafe.. )

that line means iniiwan ko na yung 'thought' na un, and un yung falling star ko. but that doesn't mean i don't want you in my life. i would never want you na mawala ka sa buhay ko. alam mo naman gano ka kaimportante sakin. diba you are my co-warrior? my brother? bakit ka naman lumalayo.. nasasaktan ako ng sobra..




i miss you soo much.. you are one of the best things that happened to me.. sana marenew na friendship natin..











je t' aime soo much..



:(

sometimes in life, even if you are constantly in happiness, some things might just go wrong..
me? one of my stars just fell, and it really made me so sad.. I'm still in the process of accepting that i just lost that star. but i know in time, i will understand the reason why he has to leave me.



for now, i will be pushing my heart to live without that star..









( sad truths.. )

right now, i can think of so many things that i want and need to do, and i'm starting to feel uneasy. well, it's pressure that i want right? haha.. not really.. i just want a clear direction..




i just went to systems plus computer foundation. i had a feeling this morning while i am praying (my instinct told me) to go and get an accountancy curriculum of the school. i just did that, and i also inquired about transferring and 5th year accountancy stuffs. i now have the school's curriculum and even the school handbook. i also went around the school for a few minutes, just to get a look at its environment. it's quiet there (but that is maybe i did not see a lot of students. holy angel university looks way better that it, yet that fact doesn't matter much to me. why would it be? ( well, unless the place's full of gross creatures and things) what matters to me are the people whom i am going to be with during my study at the school. if you are wondering why in the world am i planning to transfer? guess what? i may be having the urge of continuing my CPA dream. if i will transfer, i am going to take (again? whew, haha) all my accounting and law subjects with grades 2.25 and below. WaAaa.. i haven't given my grades much attention since the first time i failed to belong to the dean's list. and those are 11 subjects.. (oh, c'mon! i'm taking all of those again?) plus i think i need to take those two foreign language courses, and a humanities subject. is that a lot? a big YES. but if i really decide to pursue the accounting board exams path, i really need to transfer ASAP. here are some of the reasons:

-i am disqualified for accountancy in HAU (so, i really need to pick up a new school, or try to graduate, or start the call-center life or loaf forever. well. the first option is the best so far)

-if i am transferring to systems plus and retake accounting and law courses, i better take the next majors at that school. i can't expect myself to fininsh the rest of my fourth year majors at HAU and expect 2 from the monster accounting teachers. that would really be a miracle. (i mean, it's not an underestimate of my abilities, it's just a prophecy from years of evaluated holy angel accountancy experience.)

-i'm wasting money which doesn't come from my own perspiration because of failing my subjects

-i'm finding it hard to picture myself in a class with the lower years studes

well, i must weigh all my options, pray sincerely for guidance on my judgment, and ACT.

Godbless me.. hahaha

cheer up! valentines day is not only for lovers.
enjoy the day.. much love!

wee.. because of the secret and its law of attraction, me, Khym and Rhonz became the positive gurls. and we would continue our journey to living life the positive way. always..



Carpe diem.. everyday.. ^.^

everyone's getting a fuss about this date. me? haha never! because 13 is one of my best, and most favorite day. . :) and today, these are some of the few reasons why this friday the thirteenth is so special to me.

--reybee royal day
--awards night, organization of the year award


(just a trivia., while i'm typing this, two devilish boys are playing with my hair.. darn! hahaha.. love and peace.. muah)


anyway, going back.. this day was the second celebration of royal reybee day. did i say celebration? haha.. we did not do that.. sad.. :( schedules don't meet.. (look at the brighter side, i am excited to have a chance to finally, really celebrate it. haha )


tararan.. the Angelite of the Year III awards night.
this was a night anticipated by many, ignored by many, too. me? i have looked forward to it. i even geve best efforts to motivate our founder to attend the said awarding. some of our members do not want to be in the awarding, feeling discouraged that we might not get the award. but what is the essence of that award, compared to how it feels to be with the members, who with the same dream seats together, anticipating with fear, yet having one of the best time of their lives. i repeatedly tell them, 'the difference is just the shape of the plaque. (the non winning organizations and contenders have trophys, too. round ones. the winners,the angel. ) bueventhough without that trophy, we are the organization of the year, very year.' yes that's true. we are the oraganization of the year, for me, for us. :)



"ang elegant ng dating mu ngayon. hindi ka na mukhang bata"
-- a line from the president of the psychology society president, my crush..
(intelligent and gentle.. haha )





i was supposed to be watching the slapshock concert at sm clark this night. (ganda, my son in our org, invited me, rock date bonding). the awards night finished late. we did not watch the concert anymore.











all in all, im happy. this day, is one of the unforgetable days of my life.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
--Mark Twain


this is the wisdom of the day, february 10, 2009.. and I am living it TODAY.. haha :) Carpe Diem!



my day did not really started that good. but who knows that with a positive attitude, everything will be coming up roses.. yipee ^.^ (big, big thanks to the BIG father up there!)



Congratulations Rachel, you passed for training at Sutherland.. haha agent on the go. its not really that i want 'customer support representative' as my title for my whole life. of course not. i am someone who continously wants MORE. it's a training ground, to see where will i fit in this world, or if i will miss school (i am in my fourth year now, but i flunked most of my majors.. long story really, depressing, yet i have to move on...). well, i really want this start-of-work thing to be a step towards new learnings and making money work for me (so that i could spend more time doing great stuff). i was interested in joining the pharmanex company, but i have reseached fairly about networking businesses, and i think i'll have to think a hundred times doing that kind of business. i'm not closing doors, but i am as well trying (with not a lot of good working experience yet) to filter the information and lessons i need so i will have a fruitful life.. :)

• registration
• essay writing
• initial interview
• written test
• language interview

training will start on march, so right now, i just have to concentrate on my subjects (i really need to talk to my pdpr professor) and Theatre Guild.

i had a lot of clutter and unorganized thoughts in my mind right now.. but i want to write the following for me to be reminded..

1. keep the prayer habit
2. acknowledge your love ones always
3. smile
4. take care of Jogs ( jogs is a member of our theatre organization. she's my bet for heiress to the president's throne. hahaha i am taking care of her, making sure she's going to be a strong, guided and inspired girl.. :) )

whew.. it's valentines,, i don't have a date.. any suggestions? hahaha

p.s.

i cried my heart out last night. i realized i love my brother soo much.. ohana hahaha

GOODLUCK to our dreams.. :) To Him be the glory

Imagination is everything..

I have just watched and is being inspired by the movie THE SECRET. I have heard of it, ages ago, Oprah show, books in the National Bookstore, a dvd from a business individual, yet i did not paid any attention to it. Until now.

hmm.. I am going through a very difficult time in my life right now, an experience shared by all. (I mean, everyone goes through bad things at one point in their life, right?). I am caught in a situation which is so hard to deal with, and im imprisoned with lots of negative emotions about it. school, stop school? do this, don't do this?

As I watched the movie, I was filled with new inspiration and new strength. I analyzed the things around me, and realized I might be doing some things the wrong way, which makes me so unhappy. For almost months now, the dominant thought that runs in my mind is that i have been failing. failed to pass all my subjects, failed to be a good organization president, failed to be a desired daughter and the failures go on and on. and even if I try to get my self back on track now, i still fail, the same things happening over and over. people around me told me I've changed, and I am not the person they knew I were. But is it really about being who I am, or is it my actions and thoughts?

The movie tells us that we are all made up of energy and vibrations. not only the humans, but also every non living thing in our universe. we attract the vibrations that are the same with the vibrations that we have. that is why the Secret tells us that everything lies with the LAW OF ATTRACTION. the movie goes on with different people, visionaries, authors, philosophers, businessmen who talk about this secret, the power that lies among all of us. here is one of the quotes from the movie

i did not woke up in time.. no pdpr exam., :(

this blog post is a reaction to kua james's time traveller post.





i was also amazed with that video. while i was watching it, i for myself wanted to meet my future rachel. i want to talk with her, so that we could plan our life together, well, maybe with past rachel too might be better. haha.. :) but life is just not like that. because if it is, we would have a predictable life, and for me, it's like having a contest with God.

what if I met future rachel? haha.. i hope she's beautiful and young-looking too.. hahaha and i hope all my values and philosophies are still intact.. :)

Love has many faces. In HS, we have studied these. hmm.. And because it is the month of love, i would want to concentrate about how this magical word builds up our world., haha :) There are for kinds of love. The Storge (pronounced as stor-gay), Eros, Phileo and Agape.

• Storge refers to familial love. It is evident, for example, in the warm affection that parents have toward their children.

• Eros is the desire to draw out all that is good, beautiful and true. It is motivated by need. It's often understood to refer primarily to sex, but that's really only one part of it - albeit a significant part. Eros involves the emotional need to elicit physical love and affection ("beautiful expression" in general) from the one you love. In most contexts, this involves a romantic kind of love.

• Philia is Friendship Love. It is not sexual in nature, though (in the right circumstance) it can lead to or complement Eros.

• Agape love is the selfless love for others. In Exodus 32, Moses confronts God and asks forgiveness for the people of Israel. God refuses, at first, to forgive them, but allows that no penalty or sin is on Moses' head. Moses isn't satisfied, and casts his fate with those of the people. If God won't forgive the people of Israel, then Moses wants to be punished along with them. THAT is Agape love. It is, in fact, a picture of what Jesus did on the cross for our sins. Selfless, sacrificial love - in which nothing is asked in return. This is the kind of love that everyone should pursue.

before I say anything in this post, I would like to share this video..






this clip is from the movie, Love Actually,one of the greatest love movies of all time. It is a movie of love, shown in various set-ups of life. this particular scene made me cry a lot. haha.. the lady is already married, and her husband is the bestfriend of the man who revealed his feelings to the lady through the placards. so sad.. a matter of self preservation and pure love..



What is Love? haha.. i got this definitions from askoxford.com

love

• noun 1 an intense feeling of deep affection. 2 a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone. 3 a great interest and pleasure in something. 4 a person or thing that one loves. 5 (in tennis, squash, etc.) a score of zero. apparently from the phrase play for love (i.e. the love of the game, not for money


Easy to understand, right? yet a lot of people (and that includes me) find complications in this emotion, this very broad and very unspecific feeling. (well, that is how i describe it. it's really hard to define those mushy things you feel in your chest. haha. And love is something innate to every being, even animals show and feel love..



whew.. let me share another video.. a commercial from mcdonald's philippines. FIRST LOVE




whew.. actually, i did cry seeing this commercial for the first time. it kind of hit me somewhere, in the middle of my heart.. haha.. anyway,why am I showing all this?well, it is the start of the so-called love month, and I would like to make it something new. it is the first post where in I embedded videos. I just want to remind not only myself but also everyone who will read this post, that we should never forget to appreciate people who are important to us. neglect hurts so much, and just as my brother usually tells me, Life is too short. so, i advise everyone to do something EXTRAspecial for your valued people this month. (love must be shown, alwyas, ok? haha.. just a little extra for this month.. :) ) uhmm.. also, add to your list those people who have been an essential part of your life, especially if you have been ignoring them.. Thank you is really a great gift.




just a sharing. my first love (haha.. a member of one thirty) and I had a friendly date last january 30 at coffee academy. i enjoyed our time together so much.. we talked about a lot of things.. (third party stories..wahaha bad,bad memories) I was really touched when he kept the receipt of our bill in his wallet. haha., it's so good to feel that after all the years, people remain to be good friends, inspite whatever pain they've gone through the years. time really heals everything. you are the one solely responsible in deciding whether you are going to move on, or you want to rot on devastated emotions.. haha i've gone through a lot, and i'm still learning everytime i need to move on..


1 Corinthians 13

4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails.



--this is LOVE DEFINED AT ITS BEST. reflect! ♥









love..love..love.. whew., happy february! :)