i think i know what my HS classmate went through before she became insane..


what is the meaning of “emotionally disturbed”? hmm. i think i’m going to the early stage of undeveloped insanity. i’m staring to fear facing things that are outside my comfort zone. Theatre Guild is my comfort zone, school is my danger zone.

what do i fear about going to my consta class? (and my mafin and manac class)

because i have a lot of absences.
because i did not take my prelim exams.
because i can’t face the class.
because i’m afraid i’m going to fail AGAIN due to my absences and neglect.



no one can help me now, no one. they can’t force me or even inspire me. i’m so afraid. i’m lost. still lost. after months and months of thinking over what i have done and lots of talks from people around me. i’m starting to give up one of the things i wanted the most.