I am always in for dilemmas. well i don't take that as anything negative, because that's something to be looked forward to about life right?




updates.

-i am now currently employed in two companies

• IQOR clark, site 2
• SGS (sutherland global services)

this is something illegal. really! i shouldn't be doing this, and i am sad most of my days because i'm caught in between choosing a workplace that i'm accustomed to plus having company e-mail access with friends and a company that gives me a fixed sched which might open more oportunities for me to properly plan other things with my life (i need to go back to school next semester, and my mom prefers this company as it will let me take classes in the morning or afternoon). i often get fights with my mom and myself. well i am (well i think i am) 70% decided that i wil resign at Suth and continue working with IQOR. lots of pros and cons. but if i don't decide soon, i will not be having my salary and worse be sued with what im doing. (i wouldn't be! haha positive perception)

-i'm still in the process of moving on

• with my ex
• with our memories together

don't tell me i did not try. i always do. i try to focus on working and building a stronger relationship with my barkada. (JBARK) i try to find a crush in my new workplace, so i could be excited by someone and will help me take off my mind from thinking about him (sorry- grammar errors. yuck), but i can find NO one. i even find myself in the verge of tears when a supervisor takes my call, because flashes of our happy moments enter my mind. but i have thought about everything already. it will take time . but we wouldn't be together again. with a pregnant gf (which i knew was his ex) our world together will not be happy. come to think of it, almost all of my friends are happy that me and him decided to be friends for now. it gives us time and space to think about the situation. anyway, enough. we're over. it's done. move on. get by. smile.

-i'm having school confusions

• finish Accountancy
• start music and Theatre

if i go back to school next sem, one thing is for sure. i need to pay my balance with my previous university (HAU) and i will be transferring to a school that will still allow me to be under the Accountancy program. and as always, im now in a state where i don't know if this is what i really want. (or is it really a question of what i want) CPA or theatre? well, i think i'm finishing accounting first. but i really want to master myself in terms of SAVING. i will save! that's what i want! haha i want to have money saved so i could take music and theatre courses in the near future :) in a world of chaos, you will never have NO time for your heart's passion. :)

amidst all, there are a few things that makes my heart survive.

• my Father (papa G)
• my mom
• JBARK
• bee
• my visualized company :) details in the near future. key words -- positivism.faith.health.passion excited!