whew. I have just experienced difficulty in making my blog posts this day. i was really about to give up, but I decided to continue.



here are some of my december stories that I would like to share:



-Jm Dream-

this was the first time that he entered my dreams. i won’t go into details here, but I just want to reveal how much I miss him. he was a person who brought changes in me, inspite of the distance and without him realizing. that’s that. the end. hahaha





-my disastrous preliminaries-

we just had our prelim exams, before our christmas vacation. and I missed three of my exams.. :( we had problems in the family. it came to a point when mom and my cousin asked me if i want to quit school. (sigh) I wouldn’t want that. would I? i have work. for TG and myself, why quit now. well, honestly, before I came up with these realizations I reached the point when I wanted suicide. and this is one of the biggest mistakes I did in my life. even by just wanting it, that thing is so dreadful. imagine, the thought of doing that means that I think of myself as a waste. i am 20, do I consider all my past years a waste, just because I’m having a hard time dealing with things that I am going through right now? That’s something for me and all my readers out there to think about. don’t be such a crap. someone else is suffering more than you do, and they are trying their very best to be brave. stop all the drama and act.





-my christmas wishes-

bee asked me a question this day. what’s top3 on my christmas list. these are my answers to him.

a man that will be close to my heart, and that will care for me
more strength
and my top 1, for my mother to bee happy.
no explanations. I have a lot of wishes. But I have to keep myself from wishing how life could be sweeter and better. I have to act to have a life in a way i want it to be. I control my choices. whether it’s christmas or not, I have to be the best person I could be.





Happy Holidays to everyone! Be blesses and guided.