THE SECRET of our life..  

Monday, December 21

there will always come a time that we need to be reminded by things.. that is why I am reposting this article.. (feb '09 post, title: making my reality)










Imagination is everything..-- Albert Einstein


I have just watched and is being inspired by the movie THE SECRET. I have heard of it, ages ago, Oprah show, books in the National Bookstore, a dvd from a business individual, yet i did not paid any attention to it. Until now.
hmm.. I am going through a very difficult time in my life right now, an experience shared by all. (I mean, everyone goes through bad things at one point in their life, right?). I am caught in a situation which is so hard to deal with, and im imprisoned with lots of negative emotions about it. school, stop school? do this, don't do this?
As I watched the movie, I was filled with new inspiration and new strength. I analyzed the things around me, and realized I might be doing some things the wrong way, which makes me so unhappy. For almost months now, the dominant thought that runs in my mind is that i have been failing. failed to pass all my subjects, failed to be a good organization president, failed to be a desired daughter and the failures go on and on. and even if I try to get my self back on track now, i still fail, the same things happening over and over. people around me told me I've changed, and I am not the person they knew I were. But is it really about being who I am, or is it my actions and thoughts?
The movie tells us that we are all made up of energy and vibrations. not only the humans, but also every non living thing in our universe. we attract the vibrations that are the same with the vibrations that we have. that is why the Secret tells us that everything lies with the LAW OF ATTRACTION. the movie goes on with different people, visionaries, authors, philosophers, businessmen who talk about this secret, the power that lies among all of us. here is one of the quotes from the movie
' what you think, and what you feel and what actually manifests is always a match, NO EXCEPTION. '
I say YES to that. well, i have been thinking of moving on, of strength and inspiration, and see, i finally got the urge to watch the movie. well it is my decision of course. what i'm trying to tell is that, if you focus your thoughts about what you really want, and you are passionate about it, then the universe conspires to help you achieve that. you do the thinking, then the universe will tell you how, if you are going to feel what the universe is telling you. (whoa, this is just like THE ALCHEMIST. I think the book and this movie is patterned with the same belief. )
well, I love this idea. and I want this idea to be my reality. we all have the freedom to choose our ideals right? power to make our reality. just choose whatever makes you happy :) (oh! if ever cruel things like wanting murder makes you happy, think again. there are two basic emotions, good and bad. and guilt is at the bad side. goodluck.. hahaha)


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uhm, before i posted this entry, i made researches about the secret, the movie. there are lots of compliments about it and of course, oppossitions to it. some say the idea is against Christian belief, that it recognizes no God, and it makes people think that they are the creators of their life. whew.. some even say it's an evil deception. I'd say no to that. the movie tells us of a Higher power, it just respects the belief of everyone,that not everyone believes in a god. so the movie is not specific with it, nothing wrong with that. religion and christianity is not meant for people to close their minds. i think that these two, together with psychology and philosopy should come hand in hand, in making people's lives better, sharing good and love with one another.
Faith makes us sure of what we hope for and gives us proof of what we cannot see... We also know that what can be seen was made out of what cannot be seen. (Hebrews 11)
who makes our destiny? who makes our calling? It is ourselves. whatever we choose to do, if we focus and dedicate our life to that, then it would be our destiny, our own calling. we have the power to choose and to act. the laws of God, love, and attraction govern us. but you do the deciding, and everything starts with you.
so, start the visualization now. know exactly what you want. and let the world help you do it. have faith.
i'm hoping that i've inspired someone with this entry.. GODBLESS our endeavors. :)

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when you don't know how to say sorry..  

Saturday, December 19

I just had quite a misunderstanding with someone from my workplace, and it really hurt me a lot.
why? because that person is someone very likeable. really likeable. and I thought that we were okay (well maybe we were) not after I said the following words. ..

Is that a question or a statement?


(deep sigh)


I cried hours during that day. I'm spend an hour crying before starting my work, crying while doing my calls, and will cry more later I know. It's just that I don't even mean anything bad (even a bit) of what I made that person feel with what I said, but I still made her feel worst. And it feels total agony.













I don't know how to say sorry. She is very angry and I can do nothing about it.
I offended her sooOo much.
I don't know.

Was it the way I spoke?
Was it because you were very tired that moment and you thought I disrespected you?
really, i mean no offense. if it's my freaking high pitched normal talking voice that makes people think i'm MAARTE or if it was my unwitty choice of words because that statement seem very normal for me, i really am not sure. but i really wanted to tell you I'm sorry. If you're someone I don't care and even know of, I might not even be hurt like this. but it's just that, every time this issue enters my mind, it reminds me of those moments that we were happy..

we're not best friends or even buddies..
but more than just acquaintances you just met and nod heads with.








Sorry. I know I've offended you. It might sound like crap, but I really, really did not mean it. Hope we could still reconcile in the future..

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when you don't know how to say sorry..  

I just had quite a misunderstanding with someone from my workplace, and it really hurt me a lot.
why? because that person is someone very likeable. really likeable. and I thought that we were okay (well maybe we were) not after I said the following words. ..

Is that a question or a statement?


(deep sigh)


I cried hours during that day. I'm spend an hour crying before starting my work, crying while doing my calls, and will cry more later I know. It's just that I don't even mean anything bad (even a bit) of what I made that person feel with what I said, but I still made her feel worst. And it feels total agony.













I don't know how to say sorry. She is very angry and I can do nothing about it.
I offended her sooOo much.
I don't know.

Was it the way I spoke?
Was it because you were very tired that moment and you thought I disrespected you?
really, i mean no offense. if it's my freaking high pitched normal talking voice that makes people think i'm MAARTE or if it was my unwitty choice of words because that statement seem very normal for me, i really am not sure. but i really wanted to tell you I'm sorry. If you're someone I don't care and even know of, I might not even be hurt like this. but it's just that, every time this issue enters my mind, it reminds me of those moments that we were happy..

we're not best friends or even buddies..
but more than just acquaintances you just met and nod heads with.








Sorry. I know I've offended you. It might sound like crap, but I really, really did not mean it. Hope we could still reconcile in the future..

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searching..  

Tuesday, October 13

every long lost dream lead me to where you are. others who broke my heart they were like northern stars, pointing me on my way into your loving arms. this much i konw is true...
that God bless the broken road that led me straight to you..














an i-just-met person told me, "You will continously experience the lesson that you refuse to learn". Those lines left their mark in me. Yes. I will continue breaking my heart until I learned to wait for the man who will truly earn my love.









For I anticipate you in every tear I shed
That when the time comes for us
You will show me genuine feelings and care
I might not know who you are
Yet to continue believing in His ways
I know I'm so close to seeing you
So close to feeling you..
So close to loving you..
God blesses each broken road..
That will lead me to you..
(anticipating)

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Less sleep is more life whahaha  

Wednesday, August 12

i could be beaten by doctors by the title i just typed for this post. haha who cares? i'm entitled to liberty once in a while..



facebook mafia-this is what i'm currently doing..
later i'll have to finish my explanation why i had incurred tardiness for my technical training.. (c'mon.. be positive chel!)
i have just sent my resignation for my former company.. (where i worked i think for less than two months?waaa)
i'll be AGAIN taking my technical certification in two weeks time. 9even if i'm already certified). sometimes you'll just have take the consequences or should i day requirements of the things that you really want, however hard thwy might seem at the beginning. well ou'll never know if that's what you realy wanted unless you give it a shot. and A SHOT means really going for it and not just going through preliminaries.


pause: loading my playlist which consists of louder, rougher music.. -- basic relief therapy of rachel..


regained a bit of health. (alert: chel needs to eat LOADS now.. haha i'm dead hungry!



what's running in my mind at the moment:
danes my former product trainer is cute..
i miss my barkada..
thinking when will I oen my accounting books again..
nervous for the upcoming certification..






needs more prayer.. - ultimate health strategy..










-------back to the normal world..

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what's inside my mind NOW?  

Wednesday, July 15

fast news..

july 12- 'it' day


july 15-first time i was commended in a call. (well, i always get commended by customers because of my patience listening to them, however frustrated i am). but this day, my cust asked for my supervisor to send her commendation, and i listened to the call. wAAAa.. soo happy..

but that doesn't change the fact that i miss zune. and i don't know why inspite all of what happened to me in my former company, i still want that job back. if not for it's instability, i will dumped my new work immediately. (too harsh!)


i am looking for extra jobs. i need to help my mom pay my sister's tuition fee. now, i'm getting dizier thinking how could i save for myself and my other dreams. on the other hand, i will be extending financial help to a friend that needs to be operated soon.


i am the only person at our office that brings the picture of her barkada at her table every shift. can't help it!













stay positve. i miss a lot of things. but i need to stay focused and to keep my dreams as close to my heart as always. my faith is my power.















Godbless us ! :)

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i just lost 'it'  

no turning back.
it was lost.
but it's still mine.





can someone decipher this?

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lost in the middle of deciding  

in supposed to choose which company will I work for.
i'm okay with my new company, but i miss my first company sooOo much. i still don't know what to pick. im cheating the companies and myself. i have to choose one. NOW.


papa God.. Help!

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